Tuesday, March 23, 2010

New Day - Stream of Consciousness #2

new morning/ fresh thoughts/ letting go/ letting God work it all out/ He all ways does/ always all ways/ faith/ faith/ prayer/ with love/ in love/ sun/ son/ freedom/ the world is Gods and so it is mine too

Monday, March 22, 2010

Be Good to Women Day

In celebration of Be Good to Women Day I celebrate you, the readers of this blog, the founders and contributors. Thank you for honoring yourselves, the women in your lives and women all over.

I will say that as a daughter, sister, aunt, mother, woman and human being I am grateful for a day such as this, however the celebration is bittersweet. Do your own research on the statistics of abuse against women. Research the internet, look into the faces of women in your churches (yes, your church too), schools, neighborhoods and even more sadly, your homes. Be Good to Women Day, Mother’s Day and Valentine’s Day should sound as weird as National Blood Flowing through Veins Day and Blinking Day. But I won’t preach. No, I am a poet, an artist, a mother who has seen too many sad, broken, abused, lonely women and has been every one. But I am one of the special ones because I know that abuse does not define me. I am not first name Victim last name Zainabu. In fact, my name doesn’t matter at all. All you need to know about me is that I am God’s daughter. This…knowing was the key to my healing. Because of whose I am I am whole. I am complete.

So how should you celebrate Be Good to Women Day? Well, you create that. I will suggest this, be the change you want to see in your mother’s life for all women, all of the time. And when you forget, remember. And be that again.

God holds the hearts of women
In a special place I feel
The benevolent eye that watches the sparrow
Watches us
I know

Still the conversations of victim, defeat and not enough show up
Harmoniously, in whispers, often, today
We understand, as if understanding were cure
Through long work shifts, sore feet and bills due
We are hopeful inside closets where we cry
On the lawn chairs where we laugh about the nothing
About everything

We know we are enough
Still we are big girls longing jump rope and tetherball at recess

We are strong
We are our mothers our grandmothers
We are words and rainbows
Rivers and results

I stand in front of my mirror
Full breasts
Hips that carried my son
A belly that rested his head

Still the not enough shows up

And sometimes I listen
But then sometimes
I don’t

Be Good to Women Day. Be good to all women. I am every woman and so are you. If I am not well then neither are you. If I have eaten and you are hungry then none of us are well. Be Good to Women every Day.


Dear Uraeus #18

I am thankful
for you
for your strength
for your wisdom and humor beyond your years
because you are a warrior
for your freedom
for your depth
for your love
because God lives in you

I speak with the ancestors about you
The spirits are in love with you too
Grandmother Omega laughs with you in your sleep
Grandfather Therman plays chess with you
Grandmother Georgia Bell sings to you
Grandpa Richard walks to school with you
Uncle Bubba guides you at the crossroads
Aunt Mary dances with you

The angels are always camped around you
God is always with you

Today I wish you love and laughter
Silliness with security
I wish you the wisdom to know time and place for fun and work
Feel the fingers of all of us who love you massaging your shoulders
Know that you are loved
Know that you are love


Sunday, March 21, 2010

for w.b.

quicksand and breakups
backs and forths
tears forgiveness and love
always love
through it all

lies and rainbows
butterflies and beetles
we are both guilty
of love
of fear
of hurting
on purpose
hurting because we hurt

we are the bad guys
the good guys

there was always love
through it all
all ways love

you are the cloud
the cotton
heartaches are forgotten and
you are my soft place to land

Saturday, March 20, 2010

New Day - Stream of Consciousness

because life is always changing and staying the same
and changing back again
because love is always around hanging around
always right under my nose
always right in my face hiding its face
and showing its light
and i can see clearly now the rain has gone

and i can hear Gods voice always clearly clearly
every morning without fail we speak
God and i
we chat and i am at peace
so much peace and i have happiness beyond measure
happiness that cannot be understood
unless you know God and Gods mercy like i do
i am safe in His arms

i am happy letting love have its way
finally its way with God at the head
and no turning back now

i am at peace in praise knowing my position with God
with father
with mother

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Dear Uraeus #17 Stream of Consciousness

because you are always all ways on my mind/ loving you/ keep tapping into your destiny/ keep minding your mind/ keep finding your center/ remember to breathe/ breathe/ connect and keep reconnecting yourself to yourself/ your power/ love/ remember to love/ remember to love when you forget/ when you forget to love/ because you are always on my mind/ reconnect yourself to your peace/ they/ they/ the nameless faceless theys will try to knock you off your peace because they cannot find their own/ your peace/ your peace/ your peace piece of this pie/ piece of this world/ this love/ dont mind me/ i am just working/ loving/ thinking/ all the time thinking about you/ freeing my mind/ this is how i center myself/ through prayer/ through love/ through writing/ poems/ letters/ to you/ you/ always you/ this stream of consciousness writing/ about you/ about you/ just letting my thoughts pour/ about you/ your smile/ your voice/ my son/ my sun/ my love/ light/ warrior/ champion/ freedom/ brightness/ about you/ letting my thoughts pour/ they/ they/ the nameless faceless theys will whisper what they whisper because they are afraid/ afraid/ to speak out loud/ out loud/ and you know i love you and that is whats important/ what you know/ what you know/ what you and i hold together in our hearts/ together/ one/ heart/ beating/ knowing/ loving/ mother/ son/ family/ freedom/