Monday, September 27, 2010

who's in a word

she can't say nigger
you can say fag
he's a racist
you called him a beaner
they lazy
you livin' off a trust fund
she nappyheaded
you got a perm
she a blackie
you got a tan
they gointa hell
you burned the crosses
she told you she was hungry
there are your leftovers
he been married ten years to the same white woman
you cheatin' on three sistas now
and i'm the bitch?

Saturday, September 25, 2010


I saw the play VOICES last night at the Wilshire Ebell Theatre. It was an incredible blend of black history, American history, Negro history, our dance, our music, our stories. Yes, Negro. While we don't refer to ourselves as "Negro" the luxories we accept today came from the sacrifices of those who did.

The play is about a young woman writer who travels through time (sent actually by her grandfather). She meets people she has only read about in history books, and some she had never heard of before. "Baby girl" begins her writing journey seeking to tell interesting stories and not those old Negro stories she had heard so many times and had considered boring. No, she was going to tell GRRREEAT stories! After her journey she realizes her calling and is inspired to tell the stories of our ancestors. Stories she thought were boring she finds are rich, awesome and inspiring. Someone has to tell the stories of our past. Go see the play VOICES and see how "Baby girl" becomes excited about doing that.

quote from Maggie Kuhn

"Speak your mind. Even if your voice shakes."

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

freestyle poem # 144433399930220.2

in the space of releasing
letting go
moving forward
forgiving myself
for believing so many lies
so many times
honoring myself
for seeing clearly
loving myself
for loving myself
for choosing me
choosing life
loving myself for loving me

I am

I am the lack that exists in my finances, and has existed in my finances for many generations and I delete myself from my molecular structure.

I am free, joyful, wealthy.

Friday, September 17, 2010

soldiers work - draft 2

slaughtered by force, by AIDS, by starvation
i want my words, our words, all of our words to heal
there is no fairy dust in our pens
only ink
blue black
like me, like them

what good is poetry
if it cannot keep them from
living in fear of death
of life

this was all planned i suppose
met over with tea and milk
"they no longer kow why they are fighting, nor whom
violence for violence's sake"

those are my arms in eastern congo
reaching for freedom
my sweat, my heart beating, my breath musty
that's me, that's you
hiding behind bushes, dirt, exposed

sexual assaults five times more that gunshots
they is not multiplication
they are women
real eyes that burn
real stretch marks and skin carried real babies
heavy hearts that hold hope

dear God how can i make my words my life
mean something to them

in a bed across the way
a man is chanting
a woman is knitting
"the smell is awful" a doctor warns
"she's only fourteen" whispers an aide

four years old children should be
sticking out tongues and dancing to drums
eighty years old grandmothers and grandfathers
should be passing down stories and lies and God
not dying from or living with plunder and rape

sodomized men
fathers forced to commit incest
with daughters, brothers, sisters

she passed out before they finished with her
"eight or ten of them raped me"

parents and siblings commanded to witness
husband tied to the hut to watch his wife be raped
by men he cannot fight
there are no words for the coiling of his blood
the pain in her spirit

over and over several men gang rape a woman

look at us in our fancy goodwill clothes
with our notebooks and pens
ready to set the world free
we are numb to hearing about the commonplace assaults
as if we are watching a CSI marathon
this is real life there
as we eat steak and complain about organic or processed food
the economy, permed or locked hair
and the presidents birthplace

our sisters are domestic and sexual slaves
women and girls kidnapped
the evening grows louder with whispers
as armed men divide into groups
just after nightfall

Thursday, September 16, 2010

soldiers work - draft 1

by force, by AIDS, by starvation
what good is my poem
if it cannot stop this
my words feel little now
i want them to heal

planned destabilization
they no longer know why they are fighting
nor whom
violence for violences sake

eastern congo
sexually assaulted victims
four or five times more than gunshot wounds
they are not numbers
they are women
real eyes that burn
real fingers that dont want to feel anymore
real heads that shake in dispair
hearts maybe hearts that hold hope
somewhere however faint

in a bed across the way
a man is chanting
a woman is knitting
"the smell is awful" a doctor warns
"she's only fourteen" whispers an aide

victims range in age from four to eighty
sodomized men
fathers forced to commit incest
with daughters, with brothers, with sisters
she passed out before they finished with her
"eight or ten of them raped me"
whole family olbiged to witness
children brought in
husband tied up to the hut
home, sacred
repeatedly several gang rape a woman
commonplace assaults

domestic and sexual slaves
women and girls kidnapped
plunder and rape
armed men divide into groups
just after nightfall

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

My dream (lesson) last night

In my dream last night I was sitting outside at a table with maybe two other people. A beautiful parrott flew right to me. I was afraid at first but then became relaxed. The man across from me picked up the parrott and broke its neck. Right in front of me. Easily, as if nothing was wrong. He laid the bird down on the bench and I was horrified. There was no sound. None. I could see mouths move and other motion but couldn't hear anything.

I remember leaving the table and telling everyone I could about the bad man who killed the beautiful bird. That was my mission. I told everyone. Then I ran into someone who told me to follow him. I did and we went to the place where it all happened. The same table, the same day, the same circumstances. I even saw myself sitting there. Everything was the same, except this time there was sound. This time I could see what I didn't see before and hear what I couldn't hear before.

I thought in silence we were having a friendly lunch but as it turned out, the other man sitting next to me, who seemed very kind, was actually threatening the "bird killer" and told him that if he didn't kill the bird right then, then his family would be killed. I could see sorrow in the man's face as he put the bird's head in his hands and saw him cringe as the neck snapped.

I woke up remembering sooo many details about this dream. When this happens to me I know it's a lesson for me to surely remember. A lesson for me, a lesson for all who hear it. It's too easy to walk away and tell everyone what you think you know about a situation. It's too easy to judge. Too easy to lable someone. There is always something we can't see, something we can't hear, something we don't know.


Who you have in your life is what you have in your life.