Break. New year. Lorazapam.

I had a two week break from teaching my class and on the last day of class we named what we were going to do during the break. Without hesitation I said that I was going to catch up in my blog. I didn't. But I'm here now. So far the new year is treating my kindly and I hope it gets even better. I'm in prayer a lot these days. Prayer for direction for Uraeus. Because these are the years. The questioning years. The finding you own way in the world years. I pray that God will reveal God's self to him and he will know. That he will trust his intuition, the ancestors, God, life. This is my prayer for him.

I didn't get on here to say any of that. It was inside and came out. What can I say, mothers and sons. Mothers and sons.

In other news I just got caught up with rent, yes praise God. But omg that sucka is around the corner again. And keeps coming faster than I can seem to sell art or get paid from my home health gigs. Something has got to shift in this new year. We will see.

I'll be out of lorazapam in two days and I don't have an appointment to see my doctor until the 15 of next month. That's not gonna work. I can't go that long without it. I can't sleep without it and I can't function without sleep. Good good sleep. Not gonna worry about that right now. Gonna concentrate on what's good. And what's good is that Uraeus and I are safe in an apartment, healthy, happy, we have food, we are together. There's more I'm sure. For now though, that's good.

Gonna turn in now.