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Friday, October 16, 2020

Gratitude

I am thankful for waking up this morning

Thankful for my life

For good food

For peace and ease in my home

I am thankful for Uraeus

For good friends

For family

For my mother and sister

I am thankful for poetry and art

For love in my life

For good mental and physical health

For my limbs

My sight

My new glasses

I am thankful for happiness in my heart

For long rides with friends

For joy

For my home

For all of my blessings

For a good rest last night

For a really comfortable bed

For money in my account

For good company

For good hugs

For every valley

For all of the lessons

For a good bath

For plans today

For all of my customers



Jennifer, me - Leimert Park



 

Long Beach, California




 

#jahasfunkyspaces


 

Things to do

I love making things to do lists. I keep it posted in colored markers in my home checking off tasks as I complete them. Something that I started doing is noticing when certain things that I need to do stay on the list without a check mark too long. If something is there uncompleted for a week then I need to pay someone to do it. This inspires me to get it done or create a job for someone else. The other thing I do on my board is create categories like HEALTH, FRIENDS, HOME...under these I put things you probably wouldn’t see on other people’s list like shower, water, nap, walk...I have lived with depression cycles for a very long time. One of the first big signs that I’m headed into a cycle is neglecting showers. Showers are hard for me when I’m depressed. Getting out of bed is hard when I’m depressed. This might sound strange to some of you but depressed or not there is something really annoying about walking by my board seeing shower unchecked. Sometimes I’m able to make a deal with myself and take a quick shower and then I can get back in bed. That actually works sometimes. Nap is on my list everyday because I also experience manic cycles. The mania is scarier to me than the depression because I have so much energy and I can’t seem to control it. It feels like someone has taken over my body AND THAT BITCH HYPE! Taking regular naps whether I’m sleepy or not remind me to slow down. I put necessary but simple things on my list too like check mail. Some days I’m too overwhelmed or sad or anxious to do anything on my list but the Virgo in me needs at least one check mark so I take myself downstairs to check the mail. If you are a list keeper I encourage you to have fun with your list. Make it pretty. Messy boards don’t make me want to cross tasks off. Include big and really easy things. Again, have fun and get it done. If you can. Mostly, be gentle with yourself.

Walking it out


 

Happy


 

Tru dat


 

New work on Patreon

 I have new work at www.patreon.com/jahazainabu. Check me out there. I'm posting poems here. If you want to read new work and see the videos that's where they will be. 

Wednesday, October 14, 2020

New specs


 

Seeking advice

I published my first poetry book around 2005. The book is called THE SCIENCE OF CHOCOLATE MILK MAKING. Unfortunately the publisher passed away shortly after the book was released. It was a new and very small press. The book has been selling for years and I have never seen a dime from those sales. For some reason the book is selling now for over $150. I don't understand why. But it is. I know for a fact it's selling because I have signed copies for folks who paid that much for it. In the beginning I was on a quest to get that straight but got nowhere and then gave up. My thought back then was hey, it's my first book I'll write another book. But now I would like to revisit that and don't know where to turn. If you have suggestions I would appreciate that. Please please please don't add comments will not forward this. If you can help that would be great. If not your thoughts and prayers are appreciated. I don't know why I am nervous about posting this but I am. I share a lot with you but for some reason I'm sensitive about this.