* Morning again.
J* Yeah, early morning.
* What are you doing?
J* I put a dvd in my computer and I'm working on my show for Saturday.
* No you're not you're typing this blog.
J* True. But before that I was working on the show.
* What's there to add?
J* Not really add, just kinda put together. The show is still a puzzle and each piece works but I keep changing where I want what where. A part of me feels like this will go on until I'm actually on stage.
* Do you usually go through all this before a show?
J* Umm, I have my process but no, it doesn't look like this always.
* So why the change for this show?
J* I think because it's going to be a more personal show. A lot of me. Me. I tell a lot of stories about other folks and...
* Really, other folks?
J* Well, ok, sometimes I just say they are about other folks but really they are me. But this time there is a lot of me. Admittedly me.
* That's not that new though. You've done that before.
* So what else is new?
J* There will be a lot of people who have never seen me perform before. Either have never seen me or haven't seen me in a long time. I'm a little nervous about that. I don't know why. But I am a bit.
* You know how I feel about the phrase I don't know.
J* I do hide behind "I don't know" a lot. You're right. It's my way of being lazy. "I don't know" is a good way for me to not do the work in my head and work through whatever I'm saying I don't know about.
* So do the work.
J* I'm nervous because the show comes at a time when I'm doing a lot of work on myself. No matter how much I try to hide behind a character, the really sore spots of me will show through.
* They always do.
J* Yeah, but this time on purpose. Artists are weird.
* I was going to say that.
J* We put ourselves in positions to show our weaknesses.
J* To get stronger. To help other people get stronger. One time I asked V. Kali why artists go through so much...stuff. She said to me "because you'll tell it."
* You tell that story a lot.
J* When I need to hear it.
* You there.
J* I'm here.
* What are you doin' now?
J* I think I'm gonna check my facebook again and go to sleep.
J* Yeah, I'm getting a headache and I have to get up early.
J* The headache or get up early?
J* The headache probably because I had such a cold the last couple of days and I drank some whisky to dry out the mucus. It worked and I had a good nap but...
And I'm getting up early because I need to catch the train to Long Beach to meet my mother in the morning and then I have a lot to do at the theatre.
* Get some rest. Love you.
J* Love you too.