Zainabu out

Good morning, everyone. I've been posting in this blog since 2009 and I've decided to say goodbye. Slowly though. If you want to keep up with me, and I hope you do, you can join me over at www.patreon.com/jahazainabu. It's a paid site so you would have to pay every month. You pay as much as you want to pledge. Some folks pay $5 a month and some folks pay $20. I think you can pledge even $1 a month. I give content there not available anywhere. That's where my new poems and stories are. This blog has been a healing space for me for so long but it's time for a new chapter. I might post random musings here but the meat of who I am will be there. Thank you for rolling with me for so long. Big, huge, gigantic hugs. 

Jaha Zainabu

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Gratitude

I am thankful for waking up this morning

Thankful for my life

For good food

For peace and ease in my home

I am thankful for Uraeus

For good friends

For family

For my mother and sister

I am thankful for poetry and art

For love in my life

For good mental and physical health

For my limbs

My sight

My new glasses

I am thankful for happiness in my heart

For long rides with friends

For joy

For my home

For all of my blessings

For a good rest last night

For a really comfortable bed

For money in my account

For good company

For good hugs

For every valley

For all of the lessons

For a good bath

For plans today

For all of my customers

Jennifer, me - Leimert Park

 

Long Beach, California

 

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Things to do

I love making things to do lists. I keep it posted in colored markers in my home checking off tasks as I complete them. Something that I started doing is noticing when certain things that I need to do stay on the list without a check mark too long. If something is there uncompleted for a week then I need to pay someone to do it. This inspires me to get it done or create a job for someone else. The other thing I do on my board is create categories like HEALTH, FRIENDS, HOME...under these I put things you probably wouldn’t see on other people’s list like shower, water, nap, walk...I have lived with depression cycles for a very long time. One of the first big signs that I’m headed into a cycle is neglecting showers. Showers are hard for me when I’m depressed. Getting out of bed is hard when I’m depressed. This might sound strange to some of you but depressed or not there is something really annoying about walking by my board seeing shower unchecked. Sometimes I’m able to make a deal with myself and take a quick shower and then I can get back in bed. That actually works sometimes. Nap is on my list everyday because I also experience manic cycles. The mania is scarier to me than the depression because I have so much energy and I can’t seem to control it. It feels like someone has taken over my body AND THAT BITCH HYPE! Taking regular naps whether I’m sleepy or not remind me to slow down. I put necessary but simple things on my list too like check mail. Some days I’m too overwhelmed or sad or anxious to do anything on my list but the Virgo in me needs at least one check mark so I take myself downstairs to check the mail. If you are a list keeper I encourage you to have fun with your list. Make it pretty. Messy boards don’t make me want to cross tasks off. Include big and really easy things. Again, have fun and get it done. If you can. Mostly, be gentle with yourself.

Walking it out

 

Happy

 

Tru dat

 

New work on Patreon

 I have new work at www.patreon.com/jahazainabu. Check me out there. I'm posting poems here. If you want to read new work and see the videos that's where they will be. 

New specs

 

Seeking advice

I published my first poetry book around 2005. The book is called THE SCIENCE OF CHOCOLATE MILK MAKING. Unfortunately the publisher passed away shortly after the book was released. It was a new and very small press. The book has been selling for years and I have never seen a dime from those sales. For some reason the book is selling now for over $150. I don't understand why. But it is. I know for a fact it's selling because I have signed copies for folks who paid that much for it. In the beginning I was on a quest to get that straight but got nowhere and then gave up. My thought back then was hey, it's my first book I'll write another book. But now I would like to revisit that and don't know where to turn. If you have suggestions I would appreciate that. Please please please don't add comments will not forward this. If you can help that would be great. If not your thoughts and prayers are appreciated. I don't know why I am nervous about posting this but I am. I share a lot with you but for some reason I'm sensitive about this.

Bussin' it

 

Felicia's birthday celebration - Long Beach, California 10-12-2020

 

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This vase (or whatever it's called) was left in the giveaway section of my building. I love that there are gems left there. This was one.

BUN. 18" x 24" acrylic on acid free paper. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt #jahasart

 

TRAINING DAY. 18" x 24" acrylic on acid free paper. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

TRIBE. 18" x 24" acrylic on acid free paper. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt #jahasart

 

HOOD. 18" x 24" acrylic on acid free paper. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

MORNING WALK. 18" x 24" acrylic on acid free paper. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

KISS. 18" x 24" acrylic on acid free paper. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

BRUNCH. 18" x 24" acrylic on acid free paper. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt #jahasart

 

SWEET BREEZE. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

DREAM. 18" x 24" acrylic on acid free paper. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

HAIR DAY. 18" x 24" acrylic on acid free paper. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt #jahasart

 

SELFIE. 18" x 24" acrylic on acid free paper. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

18" x 24" acrylic on acid free paper. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

KEEPING TIME. 18" x 24" acrylic on acid free paper. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

COME. 18" x 24" acrylic on acid free paper. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

POUND. 18" x 24" acrylic on acid free paper. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

FASS. 18" x 24" acrylic on acid free paper. $40 for pick up in Los Angeles, $80 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

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Morning

 10:28am. Home. I'm feeling pretty good today. I had my weekly call with my therapist and that was cool. I'm already up and crackin' on the work I have to do today. I hope you are well. 

BLESSINGS LANDING. 22" x 28" acrylic on poster board. $60 for pick up in Los Angeles, $75 for delivery in California, $100 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

LIKE SISTERS. 22" x 28" acrylic on poster board. $60 for pick up in Los Angeles, $100 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

THESE THREE WORDS. 22" x 28" acrylic on poster board. $60 for pick up in Los Angeles, $100 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt #jahasart

 

REMEMBERING. 22" x 28" acrylic on poster board. $60 for pick up in Los Angeles, $100 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

NEW DAY. 22" x 28" acrylic on poster board. $60 for pick up in Los Angeles, $100 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

WINDING DOWN. 22" x 28" acrylic on poster board. $60 for pick up in Los Angeles, $100 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

SWEPT. 22" x 28" acrylic on poster board. $60 for pick up in Los Angeles, $100 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt #jahasart

 

THROUGH THE JUNGLE. 22" x 28" acrylic on poster board. $60 for pick up in Los Angeles, $100 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

MY LAND. 22" x 28" acrylic on poster board. $60 for pick up in Los Angeles, $100 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt

 

HALLELUJAH ANYHOW. 22" x 28" acrylic on poster board. $60 for pick up in Los Angeles, $100 for shipping within the U.S. PayPal jahazainabu@gmail.com, Zelle jahazainabu@gmail.com, cash app $JahasArt, Venmo JahasArt