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I'm publishing lazy unedited, "ballads" I know. Stall me out though.

A ballad a day for June 2014 - day 8 - Fish

Swim to me. Come find me in the blue.
Reach out to me, and I will hold you too.
Flutter past my way, and see how I stare.
Call me to you, I will follow you there.

Speak the language of water, of earth and of stars.
Tell me you love me. Shout from Earth up to Mars.
Swim around with me, all the time long.
Come play with me, forever on and go on.

A ballad a day for June 2014 - day 7 - On

I do well enough pointing out my own flaws
I don't need your help with this
I do well enough not returning calls
I don't need your help to sit

On my sofa alone, wondering how it got this far
Under the moonlight alone wanting to drive away in my car
I don't miss you at all, that's not what this is
Remembering can be painful, that's just how it is

The guitar and drum, poetry and art
My blood and my veins, my limbs and my heart
This is what I have, these pieces to move on
This is what I have, this life to carry on

Gratitude

I am thankful for this day
I am thankful for the sun and my son
For my friends and family
For my plants and books and art
For sweet words and food that nourishes me
I am thankful for clean air and water
For shelter and my limbs
For safety and freedom
I am thankful

A ballad a day for June 2014 day 6 - Call from you

There are layers to the bitterness we hold
Inside this valley wounds fresh and some old
A phone call from you brought up all those times gone
Moved on with my life, I now have a son

He's almost a man, will create memories of his own
If I've taught him one thing, I hope he knows where his dreams belong
That's high as he wants them to fly
I'll do what I can so he knows that I

Will always be in his corner, that's what I needed from you
I needed your hand to lift me up, but put me down is what you would do
I thought I had forgiven you all those years ago
But seasons change to remind us, the ways we need to grow

A ballad a day for June 2014 written day 5

All those nights she sat up and cried
All of that make up to cover her eyes
All of those nights begging you please
Just wanted a kind word, be treated with ease

Now you're behind bars, and she is no more
Now you're really sorry for all of her sores
You have years left to sit, think about what you've done
You have demons at night you wish wouldn't come

But now it's too late, she's never coming back
But now it's too late for the kindness you lacked
What would you say if you could see her again
What would you do to go back to then

Gratitude written 6-5-14

I am thankful this morning for this morning
For the music in my ears
For my son
For my friends and family
For peace and ease
I am thankful today
For love

Written 6-4-14

So far I pretty much such at ballads but I am just starting. I'm giving myself credit for trying them at all.

A ballad a day for June 2014 written day 4

Baby girls, our baby girls
Stolen from your only world
Hear us cry for you
Feel our arms around you

We won't give up, we won't give in
We will search for you until the end
Hear our wings flapping to and fro
Hear our songs
Our voices reach high and way below

Lovely girls
What is wrong when our girls
Can't just be girls
Baby girls, baby girls

Gratitude written 6-4-14

I am thankful for this day
For work and art
For opening a new book
For laughter and space
I am thankful for my son
For my friends and family
For grace and mercy
I am thankful for forgiveness and being forgiven

What had happened was...

I haven't been able to get online from home so I've been posting my ballads from my phone on Google plus, which I thought was posting onto this blog since I have to go to Google plus on my phone to get to my blog. Anyway, today is the first day I was able to get online from home and boom, I can't see the posts I've been making on my blog. Sucks. Sucks for the consistency I've held for so long. Well, if we are friends on this blog site then you know I've been posting. For the rest of you I will post what I had posted.

Getting it in

I've been working out with a workout group for the past few weeks on Tuesdays and Fridays. I'm trying to honor my commitment to myself and lose the weight I need to lose. I just finished the workout for the day. Maybe I'll do a walk on my own tomorrow. I feel great.