Pomona. Feeling well. The Moth.

9:36pm and I'm home. Well, I'm here in Pomona. Not really home anymore. It wasn't home. It was a blessing at the time I needed one. Anyway, I'm glad to be here. I had my class tonight and it went ok. We are wrapping up the sessions. I think we only have about three classes left. That's really good because I need a break from the classes.

I'm feeling well today. I think that much of the suicidal ideations I was having had a lot to do with the side effects of the meds because since I've been off all of the meds I haven't had any. The dark thoughts used to take up a sizeable portion of my day. Feeling down, crying, feeling guilty about not seeing another way to escape the pain. Having little to no energy to take care of myself, the house, anything. I feel more free than I have in a long time. And it's not mania either. I feel like myself. Not doped up. My hands aren't shaking. No lithium destroying my kidneys. Not even taking sleeping pills. I still have my meds, just taking a break from them. Well actually I don't have any more sleeping pills. But that's a good thing. I don't know how long of a break I'm taking. Gonna play it by ear. I'd like to get to my birthday without taking them though. We will see.

About the move. It's going ok. Most of my things are loaded already. Gotta get Uraeus's clothes packed then pack up the refrigerator. I'm off tomorrow and Uraeus will be here too so we'll get it all done.

Tonight though, I'm about to find something interesting on YouTube. Maybe listen to The Moth until I get sleepy. You have a good night too.

Love yourselves.