Days

when a prayer is out loud / when words so lava throat pushes out groans / because what are words to a god who holds the moon / what is pressure to a woman becoming a pearl / what dial measures this kind of wait / this kind of be still and know / this kind of baby hold on / when the mind wonders if god is actually through with you / what song then / when the body begins to long for a chariot to carry you home / when fingers flip through yesterdays in search of where it all went wrong / but you know this is not a punishment / you know god always got a plan / when the history books remind you the generations your grandmothers picked cotton / when you wonder how long oh lord / how long / when sky been dark so long day is only a story you heard / when rest is not for you / when you are anxiety's best braid / when there is no other option but to roll yourself up into a french twist and work your fingers to the nub / and you better look good doing it / when there are no ears for your woes / when you think you just might make it another day / when you have lunch at the bridge where you might jump / when you finish the lunch / when you drive away / when you live to see another night / when you have lorazepam and rat poison and whiskey in the glovebox / when a night will come when enough is enough / when you have given up hope of the bus coming for you / when you are moses only sent to lead the people / when the promised land is not for you / you flip the coin you have left / and tails / and tails