Safe men

I leaned to never choose men for love
He won't hit me
He won't rape me
I chose for safety
He won't scream obsenities in my ear in the middle of the night

But I ignored what I wanted
Because he didn't hit me
But he didn't love me
He punched holes in the walls
He screamed at me anyway
He raped me anyway

He didn't yell but he didn't talk to me
We rarely laughed
Sex was a bore

I wasted years on safe men
He was in the church
The safest of them all
And was dating three other women there

But I was safe
And lonely
And bored
And what woman would want a life so free