Pomona. Peter. Going through.

It's 9:42pm and I'm home. We are staying in Pomona again tonight and tomorrow then headed to L.A. on Wednesday. We are completely out of the house and turned our keys in today. After that Uraeus and I had a great lunch. I dropped him off at the motel after lunch and I headed down to USC to teach my class tonight. It went well. Actually better than well. Usually I co lead the fiction class but tonight I taught the poetry class. It was lovely. The writers were great. I'm glad to be back though. I need rest.

One of good things about staying out here in Pomona is the drive home. I get to pray and clear my head of the negative chatter before I get here. Tonight on the way here I thought about the story of Peter when he saw Jesus walking on the water. He got out on the water with Jesus and actually walked. As long as he was focused on Jesus he stayed above water. When he looked down and focused on the water he would sink. I'm Peter on the water. As long as I know that God has me, has us, I'm ok. I have enough money, I'm mentally and physically well. There are moments though when I start to doubt and wonder when the money will run out. Wonder what we will do. Where we will stay. What we will eat. Wonder how long the good mental days will last. Then I let it go. I pray and talk to God like I know God is listening. And I release it. Release the stress and questions and worry. I can't afford it. I know I can't carry it. I know I can't stay above water with it. I sit and I breathe. And then I take another breath. And another.

I know this is temporary. I know we will get through this. The test though, is to stay in the moment. That's why I post every day. It keeps me in the moment. And in the moment we are ok. We are fed. We have shelter. We have a car. We have money. We have love. We have each other.

I hope you're well tonight and that you're loving yourselves.