Video. Pamela Turner. Self care.

I can't watch the video of Pamela Turner being killed. I don't know what that makes me. A part of me feels like if she can go through it I can witness it. But I just can't. What I know mostly is that MOST of my days are days when I am ignoring voices telling me to take ALL of the pills. And I will tell you, ignoring takes work. Today is not one of those days. Today I see all these tomorrows possible and in the name of my own self care. The peace in my head. I can't watch it. I hope not one more person sends it to me.