Gratitude

I am so grateful right now
I am present to the incredible privilege I have
Uraeus and I are healthy
I have food and shelter
I am at peace
I am so blessed
So blessed I feel guilty
I push the guilt away
I spent so many days and nights wondering why me
Why I had to go through so many hard times
Tonight I wonder why me
I am so richly blessed
Why me
How did I get so blessed
Beyond money and material things
Beyond fame or any kind of recognition
I know God holds me
I know God is watching
I know I am okay